Don't Judge A Meal By Its Picture

Seriously, because this one looks kind of gross...but it was SO FREAKING GOOD!

These are the ingredients. I made this one up as I go along (as I usually do...) so the measurements are at your own discretion.

Basically:
- Leftover Quinoa
- Almond flour
- Spinach
- Bell Pepper
- Green Onion
- Black Forest Bacon
- Chicken Breast
- Sun Dried Tomatoes
- Almond Milk
- Garlic Powder
- Onion Powder
- Salt
- Red Pepper Flakes
- White Wine
- Eggs (not pictured)

I didn't use the garlic or onion that's pictured because I was in a time crunch so powdered was easier in the moment.

The meal looked like this:

Green spinach, black-ish bacon, and red tomatoes make yucky green-brown btw

The Quinoa Patties were easy. I mixed the leftover quinoa with about a cup of almond flour ( there was a little more than a cup of quinoa), some chopped green onion and bell pepper, and some spices. Then I added whole eggs until it got doughy (2-3). When you can form it into balls it's the right texture. Simply make patties and fry in your choice of oil until nice and brown on both sides!

I rinsed the chicken breasts and did a fast dredge in the almond flour (about 1 cup with the garlic, onion, salt, and red pepper). Then I fried those in a teeny bit of oil until they were almost done (a lot of the breading comes off and that's no big deal). I ended up putting them under the broiler to finish those last few degrees to done while I made the sauce.

I put a handful of spinach, a few sun-dried tomatoes, and 5 pieces of (chopped) bacon in the blender. I added enough almond milk to blend it.

While the chicken was out of the pan I deglazed with white wine (just enough to scrape it) and then poured the flour in and stirred it around until it combined. I added about half a cup of almond milk and the mixture from the blender and stirred frequently. I ended up adding more almond milk to make it more "sauce" consistency but that's just me!

I sliced the chicken and poured the sauce over it. Serve it with the patties.

Super yummy and high protein!!

Fear of Losing Weight

This is something that has been weighing on me (ha! See what I did there?) lately.

I have this weird mental block when it comes to losing weight.

I talked to my husband about it and he says it's understandable and I'm not crazy. (Well, not because of this! haha)

See, when I was 16/17 and my eating disorder peaked it was right after losing a bunch of weight the healthy way. I made healthy choices and the weight came off and I liked it...too much.

It was a slow and slippery slope to go from "healthy" to "unhealthy." I didn't just stop eating overnight or anything. It was a gradual process. And it was easy to fall into it.

Knowing that about myself. I think part of me is afraid to lose weight...even the healthy way. What if I get addicted to it again? What if I become unhealthy again? What kind of message does that set for my kids?

And then I have to ask myself...but is yo-yo dieting any better? Am I a good role model if I constantly sabotage my progress? Is being apathetic with a few extra pounds any better?

So that's where I'm at right now. Who knew you could be afraid of being fabulous?

Stair Workout

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